Mindful Moment - During the course of any day we may experience obstacles and setbacks, instead of unleashing obscenities or why is this happening to me, try a different approach....stop, take a few deep inhalations and exhalations and then give thanks, the same powerful appreciative thanks you give when things work out the way you desire. This simple gesture of thankfulness no matter the circumstance begins to create a life of wholeness, recognizing there is good and bad in all life experiences, this awareness and gratitude contributes to living the life you truly desire....a life with purpose, contentment, kindness, happiness and laughter. Be Thankful Everyday.~Yogatones
I''m extremely grateful
for friendships. Fiends can be just as important if not more so as family. Today I'm grateful for my friends, who I consider my family..
Just about ten years ago with my ADN and a severe case of nurse burnout I found myself no longer working in the only field I knew and loved......nursing. I now was teaching yoga for a living, and although I loved teaching, the change left my social world empty as nursing friends and acquaintances stop calling/texting, which I rationalized as ok because
my bank accounts were quickly drying up and I really didn't want to explain my life decision with others. I needed the time to grieve, heal, and move forward...... So that's what I did!
1. Sold my car and moved out of my $$$ neighborhood into an affordable community
2. I founded Yogatones and slowly began to receive calls for services
3. Returned to college for BSN
4. Used my BSN to get a non-clinical nursing job and return to college
5. Obtained my MSN
So today I'm grateful for having the courage to walk away from something I loved, with no plan, no family nearby, and a bit of fear in order to preserve my health and well-being. I'm grateful I experienced the pain, obstacles and growth of what being an unemployed, and unknown entrepreneur really entails. I'm grateful for ability to return to college, and gain support, friendships and business in my new community.
But most importantly I'm grateful for that time in life, it pushed me forward forcing me to grow and become mindful. It allowed me to share my story of growth and healing with Nurses, with the intention of helping those who could relate to what I'd experienced....student nurses, new nurses, experienced nurses, and retired nurses.
Gratitude Day 2 - today I'm grateful for my home yoga practice. I spent many years believing I was not *doing yoga right* if there was no teacher present. Fast forward I now know I am a student and teacher and often the best benefits I receive on my yoga mat are the ones where I'm alone on my Mat in my Abode, listening to my body and moving guided by my breath. ✌🏾❤️🕉️
Today I'm grateful for all the new connections I've made in the nursing community.
After being out of the nursing community for many years I slowly re-entered feeling like a new graduate, I'd been in the yoga world and advanced nursing student role for over eight years, losing connection with many nursing colleagues. I'm extremely grateful for all of my nursing relationships.
I was recently interviewed by Minority Nurse Magazine.
Minority Nurse Winter/Spring 2017 Issue:
Hello Beautiful People….many of you have reached out to me during this time of devastation and despair…...I’ve delayed my response because I too am lost, hurt, and in the stages of grieving and really could not find any words of encouragement to share. On this third day of our new reality, as I sit on my flight back to Chicago from DC, I’m finally able to offer some words that I hope you find comforting……...my words are my truth, not right or wrong, simply my truth…...in order to process my emotions and began to heal I’ve decided to limit my social media time taking a much needed break from the constant words, opinions and feedback from others, I must attend to my wellbeing, love, career and business. Truth is my spirit has been calling for a social media break since the first debate, yet I chose to continuously ignore those calls, assuring myself with a misleading belief that I could handle it all with daily yoga, meditation and writing…...but after several restless nights of sleep and awakening Wednesday morning to learn the new leader of our free world was a misogynist, racist bully, full of hate and divide....in that moment I heard the call loud and clear, I needed to fall way back and tend to myself, thinking about it was no longer an option. It was more of an emergency call to honor my inner thoughts, feelings and emotions, to not allow another to bring me to a place where my words become sharp, leaving wounds so deep that even with the passage of time heart felt scars would remain. I immediately identified the source of my hurt, you see it's not that he won, but the reality that the majority of humans I share this space on earth with believed he was the best person for the job……...44% of white women and 53%, of white men stood behind his hate filled messages of women being nothing more than sexual objects (“if you meet his beauty standards”) our bodies are open to sexual abuse by any man at any time……minorities should be treated like common criminals and immigrants should be removed from the great USA (insert sarcasm), and walls shall be built to assure no return, and if you’re not a hetrosexual white male you deserve less rights and who you love should be under scrutiny. This majority supports his message of violence and that our soldiers, veterans and people with disabilities deserve nothing more than to be demeaned and ridiculed……...this reality has cut me to the core, because I know these people, they are my neighbors, colleagues and the most hurtful of all I thought many were life acquaintances and some were friends.
Below are photos from NMAAH
Instead of filling social media with my personal shock, hurt and disgust, increasing my stress level and putting my health and wellbeing at risk for illness and disease, I’ve chosen to take several steps back and take care of me. I recommend you take a few steps back, identify your innermost thoughts and feelings allow yourself to GRIEVE, and do it without the input of others….cry, be angry, acknowledge your fears, guilt
and feelings of hopelessness that resides deep within, even bargain out a solution. Most important grieve at your own pace, allow embrace the reality that these people who you must know, and love selected him to lead our country......then set your personal stage for forgiveness. I know this may prove to be a challenge, but remember moving forward is not always easy, this storm of uncertainty, divide and hate will pass, the sun will rise and shine again, and I do believe we will come out a better nation. But for now we each must take sometime alone, time to heal and strengthen our mental, physical and spiritual wellbeing.
I landed in DC early Wednesday, my flight was eerily quiet, once on the plane and all buckled up I put in my headphones attached to no music, I pulled my hoodie over my head sunglasses on my face and let the tears fall freely from my red stained eyes. Knowing I needed to let them flow as I was attending a professional dinner that evening and presenting at a conference in the day’s to follow. Once I checked into my hotel I took time to just sit and be still, then I slowly unpacked my luggage…...thirty minutes later I took the mile long walk to the National Museum of African American History, I reserved my tickets back in September, I don't take the timing of this lightly, walking through the museum so many emotions came to the surface, hurt, pain, but most important PRIDE, the pride of being an African American Woman, the pride of being able to pull back and take care of myself, and the pride of knowing we had eight years of a great leader and amazing first family who showed us what the power of unity can do. As I left the museum, it began to rain, as the rain picked up my tears dried up…...I really felt as though I was being cleansed from the universe, God’s way of letting me know everything's gonna be alright. I removed my rain cap and received the cleansing without resistance and as I reached the hotel the rain stopped and the sun came out…...I have not cried since, I’ve gone from feeling powerless to powerful and full of Pride.
Please Beautiful Loves take care of yourselves, answer the call of your needs, fly solo for a bit, heal, so you’re prepared for the next stages of this journey, regain your strength and beliefs, get involved in your community and if you ever witness injustice speak up, letting the offender's know with confidence and power that we will not tolerate hate and divide! WE are better than his agenda but WE must heal ourselves so WE as citizens of US can move forward together to spread love, peace, and acceptance of all….When he builds a wall, and attempts to instill fear WE tear it down letting him know we’re Fearless!
Mad Love to each of you….Peace,
Living my transitions......at this very moment in my life something is coming to an end, as another just begins. When I became a Newborn Intensive Care (NICU) nurse back in the 90's I never imagined I'd experience the love and loss of caring for complete strangers and their families.....I also never imagined what happened this school year as I took a position as a school nurse. I worked one day a week at this school, my first month into the role I would learn one of "my"former preemie babies was now one of my students! He began to shed light on our obvious spiritual connection, as he would share with me in detail his memories of being born premature, with no idea...or so I thought, of me being a former NICU nurse, he vividly described the environment, sounds, and lights of the NICU, how nurses would care for him gently removing and replacing electrode leads as alarms signaled. His memory stuck with me and led me back to my time as a NICU nurse and indeed, it was I who cared for this young man 11 years ago. Confirmation came when his mother walked into the school, the moment we locked eyes our emotions let go as we both realized, it was them and this was me...we shared tears and hugs for twenty minutes.
......four years ago I made the decision to return to college complete my undergrad and obtain my masters degree.....this weekend is graduation. Because of life obstacles and decisions I took a term off which now has me receiving my actual degree September 13 instead of this weekend. Once I realized I would not participate in graduation ceremonies, I took a Few moments to sulk, and then said to myself move along stay focused and all will be well.......A month later I received a call from the Dean of my college, asking me to sit on the advisory board for the college of nursing, and was also nominating me for honor society!!! After catching my breath I accepted, and explained I would not receive my masters until September and would not be participating in graduation. She then informed me that as a board member I WILL be attending all things graduation this weekend, as well as my first advisory board meeting where I will be introduced to new colleagues and opportunities!
The look on my students face followed by his verbal expression of sadness that I would not be returning as his nurse broke my heart, yet in the next breath my calendar alarm sounded alerting me that I have hotel reservations......packing my suitcase my heart flutters thinking about my advisory board position and graduation. Yesterday I received bunches and bunch of hugs and kisses from students and colleagues, this morning I'm greeted by another student I've spent a great deal of time with, he gifted me with this beautiful red rose. He came in with a half dozen red roses for his teachers counselors....and Me......my eyes welled-up, leaving my heart smiling.......I'm saying good by this morning, and nice to meet you this evening.
LIFE is extremely beautiful if you stay awake, connected within and open to it all.....Live Your Best Life!!!
Here's the final clip of from my health initiative presentation, with PC and Felicity.....Enjoy! As a follow up I will presenting at the upcoming Movement Cacus in November 2016!
Produced and directed by me Toni Yogatones.....
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